it was... or they were?

- bought a novel of the twilight saga.. obviously start off with twilight la..

- sungkey with eeq n tini @pizza hut~ luckily we booked our table way long before people start queuing for tables

- when u r stuffed with foods, wut would u do? of coz find a cozy place to chill out n let the food do its thang!~ (went back home actually.. hahahaha)

- bored at home.. went bowling.. 8 games.. nice~ last nite my arm felt great.. but now.. tahi!

- taking order from this " ustazah ".. ngoder umai.. so cun ley my mom in mukah..

- ym-ing for a few hours.. sleep~ (i'm back to normal sleeping pattern!! hhhuuurraaahh!~ )

- awaken by the sound of tuuutt tuuuutttt.. tuuuutt tttuuuttt.. ( usatazah msg saya )

- becoz terlajak perauk.. not in time to sahor.. this " ustazah " also msg me a lil late.. aiseh...

- 6.30 a.m.. send the orders to mama..

- continue ym-ing n youtube-ing..

- take a short nap..

- gone bowling again!~ OMG!

- nearly 1 p.m mama reached home..

- thinking of sending the umai to " ustazah " but then.. lazy.. dia datang mengambil.. hohoho.. gave her the address..

- continue twilight..

- before 2 p.m dia datang.. amazingly.. one try boleh find my house.. gud..gud..

- chit.. chat.. bla..bla..bla... then buhbye~

- continue twilight..

- phone rang.. chit.. chat.. bla.. bla.. bla.. where this where that opinions.. aunty enter frame.. hung up..

- continue twilight n a lil ym-ing..

- phone rang.. chit.. chat.. bla.. bla.. bla.. bukit aup.. haunted.. pictures.. up.. down.. temple? pagoda? bla.. bla.. bla.. law king hoew museum.. haunted trees..

- hang up..

- continue twilight.. then fell asleep..

~ZZzzzZzzzzzZZZZzzzzZZZzZzzzzzZZzzzZZZZZzzzzzZzzzzZzZzz~

"We should not look back unless it is to derive useful lessons
from past errors, and for the purpose of profiting by dearly
bought experience."

how do u feel when u are part of one big thing.. then u seems to be left out of it.. WTF!

"I think that at some point in your life you realize you don't
have to worry if you do everything you're supposed to do
right. Or if not right, if you do it the best you can... what
can worry do for you? You are already doing the best you can."

Joe Namath.

my right hip hurts..

my knees start to sound like a tommy gun..

and ends like a big bomb!

ser-en-dip-i-ty




the art of making happy discoveries,


or finding the unexpectedly pleasant by chance or sagacity

Be who you are and say what you feel,

because those who mind don't matter,

and those who matter won't mind.

--Dr. Seuss--

to : my blog..

my blog.. it's the place that i can express my feelings.. my hopes.. my despairs.. i would shun to myself if i encounter any problems.. that is me.. that was me.. that will always be me.. then when i'm worried.. no solutions.. no ends.. i'll just try to keep myself calm.. collected.. and be happy.. i always have this thoughts.. positive thinking/actions leads to success.. leads to sumthing we strive for.. that's the power of positive thinking that i have in mind.. that's y people see's me as a happy going person.. fun , exciting , talks a lot.. joked a lot.. yeah.. that's me orite..

rather then me being negative of all thoughts.. bad energy flowing.. leads to bad decisions.. hatred.. fights.. bad things happening.. it's better for me to be positive.. maybe my way is just the opposite of urs.. well.. everybody got their own ways of dealing with problems..

writing in my blog.. i wrote.. i wrote openly.. not intentionally for someone.. not written only for u to read.. not even written for anybody to read.. tho i don't mind people reading it.. i like people reading my post.. paying intention to my blog.. i wouldn't say u r stalking on me.. i would appreciate that u care reading my blog n my post interest u in any ways i have..

i write in my blog is just like i write a note for myself.. a timeline.. for example my old blog.. i abandoned it lately and started this.. when i read from the first post until the last post of my old blog.. i came to a conclusion..

i failed in my life for the last 4 years.. not to say i failed everything.. but mostly.. i failed.. i'm sad.. i'm lonely.. low self-esteem.. i tried to hold on.. and now i hold on to my life.. on a very thin line.. i said to myself.. i gotta have my last chance before i'm gonna regret my life.. loose everything.. and ending up being a LOSER!

i don't want that to happen.. no one does.. it's a pathetic thing if it happens to sumone.. now.. i almost end up becoming a LOSER!.. but i gave myself another try.. another push.. another hope.. the very last hope that i could get.. hope in everything i do will grow into success.. not a failure.. no..noo..nooo.. i can't afford another failure.. my mind can't stand all the pressure.. stress..

i will try my very best.. and do wutever i can.. and hope i'll succeed.. i pray to ALLAH s.w.t.. to give my hope.. strength.. the believe that i can gain success in anything i do.. Ya ALLAH.. plz forgive me of all my sins.. i can bear anymore sins.. all i need now is hope.. hope.. hope..


hope and despair comes in pairs..
not only me but everyone should care..
keep in mind.. even if u're in a hay day..
let's hope n pray.. GOD help me.. for one more day..

Insya'ALLAH..

a new chapter begins..

I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I’m on the block, And I
Wish my brother would've made bail,
So I won’t have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail, And I
Wish that my grandmother wasn’t sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick, And I (I wish)
Wish my homies wouldn’t have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper hand on us and we lose a brother, And I
Wish I could go deep in the zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song, And I (I wish)
Wish I could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out your hands and help you hold them high, And I
Wish my homie Butch was still alive
And on the day of his death we had never took that ride, And I (I wish)
Wish God could protect us from the wrong
So that all the soldiers that were sent over seas come home and, uh,
We will never break, though they devastate, we shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day,
The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain’t gotta cry today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cause we fight so strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life goes on!!!
Let’s HOPE!


Cause I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
cause we hopeful


I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hating so much when you see some other people coming up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have ‘em tripping off the joy I bring,
I wish that we can hold hands,
Listen instead of dissing lessons from a grown man, And I (I wish)
Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lack that’s on dubs, And I
Wish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,
And don’t nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stain’ strong,
You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone, And I (I wish)
Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly, And I
Wish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (I wish)
Then one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish we could never get the blues,
Wish I could bring back the people that died at E2
I wish that we could walk a path, stay doing the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let’s HOPE


Cause I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
cause we hopeful


Wish the earth wasn’t so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way that I can give it,
We can make it, always be optimistic,
If you don’t listen gotta live my life the best way that I can live it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country never even went to war
Why can’t we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King “Why can’t we all just get along”,
Or we can find a better way to shop and please, And I
Hope we find a better way to cop a keys, And I
Wish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfilling these downfalls and these prophecies,
You can be wrong if it’s you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father can ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep praying on your knees at church!!
And let’s HOPE


Cause I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way
I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay.
cause we hopeful

song : Twista feat. Faith Evans - Hope

-the kickstart for a new hope-