to : my blog..

my blog.. it's the place that i can express my feelings.. my hopes.. my despairs.. i would shun to myself if i encounter any problems.. that is me.. that was me.. that will always be me.. then when i'm worried.. no solutions.. no ends.. i'll just try to keep myself calm.. collected.. and be happy.. i always have this thoughts.. positive thinking/actions leads to success.. leads to sumthing we strive for.. that's the power of positive thinking that i have in mind.. that's y people see's me as a happy going person.. fun , exciting , talks a lot.. joked a lot.. yeah.. that's me orite..

rather then me being negative of all thoughts.. bad energy flowing.. leads to bad decisions.. hatred.. fights.. bad things happening.. it's better for me to be positive.. maybe my way is just the opposite of urs.. well.. everybody got their own ways of dealing with problems..

writing in my blog.. i wrote.. i wrote openly.. not intentionally for someone.. not written only for u to read.. not even written for anybody to read.. tho i don't mind people reading it.. i like people reading my post.. paying intention to my blog.. i wouldn't say u r stalking on me.. i would appreciate that u care reading my blog n my post interest u in any ways i have..

i write in my blog is just like i write a note for myself.. a timeline.. for example my old blog.. i abandoned it lately and started this.. when i read from the first post until the last post of my old blog.. i came to a conclusion..

i failed in my life for the last 4 years.. not to say i failed everything.. but mostly.. i failed.. i'm sad.. i'm lonely.. low self-esteem.. i tried to hold on.. and now i hold on to my life.. on a very thin line.. i said to myself.. i gotta have my last chance before i'm gonna regret my life.. loose everything.. and ending up being a LOSER!

i don't want that to happen.. no one does.. it's a pathetic thing if it happens to sumone.. now.. i almost end up becoming a LOSER!.. but i gave myself another try.. another push.. another hope.. the very last hope that i could get.. hope in everything i do will grow into success.. not a failure.. no..noo..nooo.. i can't afford another failure.. my mind can't stand all the pressure.. stress..

i will try my very best.. and do wutever i can.. and hope i'll succeed.. i pray to ALLAH s.w.t.. to give my hope.. strength.. the believe that i can gain success in anything i do.. Ya ALLAH.. plz forgive me of all my sins.. i can bear anymore sins.. all i need now is hope.. hope.. hope..


hope and despair comes in pairs..
not only me but everyone should care..
keep in mind.. even if u're in a hay day..
let's hope n pray.. GOD help me.. for one more day..

Insya'ALLAH..